Today was that day

Today was that day.  When the emotional meltdown finally overthrew my emotional stability and left me on the couch crying my eyes out...  for no specific reason and yet for every reason under the sun. I found myself praying, crying, and trying to figure out when and how I had become overwhelmed.  That's when I …

It’s Ash Wednesday!

It's Ash Wednesday!  As a kid this meant that I would get a quarter's folder.  In case you don't know, the quarter's folder opens up to reveal slots where you can insert quarters.  You know how on a bubble gum machine you have the slot to put your quarter in before turning the handle and …

Speechless…

In my head I went over the various scenarios.  The best case, the worst case and even the middle of the road options.  None of them were great.  They all created unwanted but unavoidable pain and suffering.  And I thought would leave me "feeling" mistreated, unaccepted and undervalued. And then I imagined what I wanted …

Today, I smile

Today, I smile.  I didn't realize it at first.  I was just sitting making my morning journey through social media when I felt myself smiling.  Not an open mouth, teeth showing, picture taking smile, but rather a gentle, upside down frown, life is good smile. That's when I realized I am happy.  I AM happy. …

Into the Ashes

When I was younger I attempted suicide.  I felt hopeless.  Unloved.  Insignificant.  And I wanted nothing more than to make the pain and suffering of life go away.  No matter how hard I tried to find the ray of light my life was dark and all I could see was the darkness engulfing me... forever. …

Rose Colored Glasses

I am human.  I know that seems like an obvious statement.  But, sometimes when others look in on the life of a Christ-follower they look with rose colored glasses.   They have these world set expectations of how the person will act and what they will think.  So I just wanted to start off setting …

Okay with hell??

My heart aches.  I mean it almost physically aches right now.  And I don’t know how to overcome it! I was talking with a friend, just about life and kids.  And they made the casual statement that they would probably go to hell and it was okay.  It was such an overwhelming statement that I couldn’t …

January’s Books/Verses

At the beginning of this year I made two commitments to myself.  The first one was to memorize a Bible verse/passage a week for the entire year.  The second was to read at least fifty two books (one for each week of the year).  But, I know me.  And making the commitment to myself is the …

Baptism Sunday

Three years ago today, my daughter was baptized. At such a young age she made a decision to follow Christ and made the choice to share that decision with the world.  And, God allowed me to be a part of the process from the very beginning.  It was a humbling experience that I will never …

Sanctity of Life or Personal Preference

With the inauguration of a new president, there has been a lot of discussion about Roe v Wade.  In case you don't know, Roe v Wade is the landmark abortion case that gave women the right to choose what is right for them - legalizing abortion practices in the US. Despite my own opinions, one …